okay so i dont really know what happened last time i was on this blog.

The second half of my sophomore year in college was total hell. Three of my uncles died within like 4 months, my best friend moved to England, I moved out from my dorm and had to commute all semester while working and going through RCIA, and my cousin died from brain cancer, which was honestly way way way too familliar to my own brother’s death eleven years ago.

so. i guess i completely forgot about my own physical health and just tried to keep my sanity. My grades went entirely to shit and i honestly just didn’t care about myself.

Now, i’m to the last couple weeks of my first semester of Junior year. One more to go then Praxis, Methods, student teaching, and i can finally be doing what i absolutely love.

Its really hard to get up and go to class every day when what you really want to do is be the teacher in the classroom. Luckily  I was extremely blessed with a job as a teacher in a day care center. while it doesn’t include actually teaching, it does get me 30 of my very own bright and shiny faces to smile at me. They call me “Miss Trish-Kabob” there and i absolutely love it.

Since the beginning of the summer when i started my new job, i began working on myself. I have truly started to start loving myself again. Last time around, I was working on myself, and had great success, and was beginning to love myself. However, because I didn’t truly love myself to begin with, the love was conditional. I loved myself when I had good days. 

When i started thinking about how I was going to get motivated and get the damn ball rolling, I thought “i really miss the fitness community on tumblr” so i hopped back on my blog, and felt like i owed y’all an explanation. 

love y’all..

but can this be a cheat week?

Type these words into your music library and post the name of the first song that appears.

• Run: No Rain-Blind Melon
• Dream: sweet dreams - beyonce
• Blood: The Scientist-Coldplay
• Home: my hometown- bowling for soup
• Night: night moves- bob seager
• Day: yesterday- beatles
• Kill: The Repetition Kills You- The Black Ghosts

blonde looks good on you :)

Why thank you! Its my natural color, and every time i get sick of it and go darker i always get remarks on how much i look better blonde, but i’m far too flighty to keep anything the same for too long

depressed.

i just have so much to do and i miss everything. i know that sounds really strange but i literally miss everything. i want to see my boyfriend really bad. and i miss my brother. and my sister. and my mom. and i have a friend in Brazil and i really miss him. and i really miss hanging out with my dad. and i miss high school. and i miss having friends.

i just miss everything.

back in the game, wuddup.

(as i’m eating cheetos)

college is terrible

literally yesterday i hated  everything about myself and today i was really confident and happy with myself….. wut